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like always I spended the day taking care of my sheeps
their wool sels well
and winter is coming, I have to prepare some wood or I'll die for the cold
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nothing new happend, but my nephew finaly paid me a visit,
I haven't seen him in ages, he's fourteen now, he's growing up fast
he says he wants to be a shepherd just like his uncle
I don't understand why he likes this job so much
my sister and I want him to study and become someone important, a doctor wouldn't be so bad
page 50
last night I had a dream
I heard some voices calling me
but I couldn't say anything
than they started singing, it was a weird song, I don't remember the words I remember feeling scared, but at the same time I felt at home, still there was something wrong, I just can't explain it
page 70
it happend again just like last night
they're just standing there, I can't see them but I know they're there
I wish I could open my eyes, but I know I must NEVER open my ayes, I just know it
I want this dreams to stop
they creep me out
page 62
I just woke up, and I went to check on the sheeps
and they where all standing still staring at the lake
it's like they're not listening
and the dog wouldn't stop barking
I checked the lake but it's just a lake, as always, even if, I have to say, the water is oddly thick
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I am so happy
they are so bright I'm so thsankful I own thsm everything I nned thsim in my life I can't live like this I nnedddddddd tham I know how to join them now I know wha t mjust be done
soon I will be by their side once again
page 75
I think I saw them somehow
I can't explain it, I just know I did
they were so beautiful
still something is wrong, I don't feel safe
one of my sheep died today
page 82
my nephew paid me a visit
he told me the farm looks weird, I don't know what he ment
everything seems fine
he told me, he felt like someone was watching him
I asked him to explain what he felt
he told me he felt like someone was watching and trying to touch him
like someone wanted to take him away, he even said he heard someone whispering
I asked what the whispers said
page 100
I'm starting to hallucinate
I see shiny figures out of the corner of my eye
when I turn around they disappear
they remind me of children
I can see them playing
I think they want me to play with them
page 101
I see them in my dreams now
I can feel them pulling and pushing me
they're not alone they are with them too
I've try to play with the children but it's not easy
I can't see, I can't touch, I can't ear
but I know they're there
I can almost ear their laughter
page 111
this time they were quiet
they were trying to tell me something
the children were just staring at me
I don't understand what they're trying to tell me
I'm not sure I want to know
this all feels wrong
it's like I'm a part of something bigger than me, something I can't control
maybe I should ignore them
but what if ...
I don't know what I should do
page 121
all my sheeps are dead
even if they're dead I can hear them
I can still "see" the children, now I heard them clearly
they want me to take care of them
they said they promised them a father a long time ago
I'm the promised shepherd
I've honestly never wanted a child
but I feel sorry for them
I've just realized
all of this isn't normal
I've eccepted this weird things like they're just reality
but I must have gone nuts, all of this can't be real right? I need to see someone, I need a doctor, a psychologist, I
they're crying
what have I done
we're such a happy family
I can see them clearly in the mirror
they're behind me
they're all smiling
and they have such beautiful ayes, pitch black
although I remembered them looking brighter
they're always watching me
they asked me to buy more mirrors
we're always togheter
and I'm starting to hear them better
I still can't make out what they're saying
they're say I'm still not ready
but I will be soon enough